Why I...........

overreact.

I have always overreacted to everything because I've known too many people who don't react...at all.

I'm constantly telling Juan that he needs to stop watching his life go by.

I get mad.

I cry.

I laugh.

I talk too much.

There are days when I talk too little (if you can believe that).

I'm writing about this topic specifically because it's something I'll always do and something I've always struggled with.

I can never find the middle ground for being angry...there's times when I'm so pissed that I'll say anything, even if I know it'll hurt the person and five minutes later, I'm standing or sitting there regretting it. I hate hurting people, despite what some might think.

The one time you'll see me "live in the moment" is when I'm writing an angry email as I did today.

I write and write and write and then I just press 'send' without thinking. I don't do this all of the time but it happens. All I can say is that I'm sorry for being so harsh even though I still stand by what I said.

Almost every day, I end up saying something I don't mean or I say something that was meant to come out differently.

I will say this, whether the person reads it or not, I know that I'm a handful but this is who I am and probably who I'll always be. I believe in standing up for what I believe in, advocating for my friends and other loved ones and apologizing when I know I was wrong.

I'm wrong for overreacting but justified in feeling the way that I do.

I'm pretty sure that the majority of the close friends I currently have, will continue being a large part of my life for years to come.

I'm sorry. But..I still stand by what I said.